Life trauma

So, I'm back.

I had to walk away from the mindless microblogging of facebook. So easy to do, but so unsatisfying. Does it give you time to reflect on your journey? No. It just allows you to shout into a cupboard and have a flurry of little thumbs come up in your wake. Does it give you perspective? Does it give you strength? Does it extend your writing skills?

No. No. And no.

It's a fool's paradise where you can feel connection without having any connection. I've been so lonely, I was beginning to lose all perspective on what I was doing.

Since my last post so much has happened. And I think it has been such a terrifying and awful time that each of these years deserves some rumination on the stuff that has happened.

Good stuff:
- Released Vermin to the Earth.
- Recorded Aokigahara Jukai.
- Released Aokigahara Jukai.
- Toured Japan with the band.
- Got a permanent job.
- Got an awesome secondment.
- Got some great job experience.

Bad stuff:
- Marion died.
- Grandmere died.
- My Mum died.
- Tom and I "broke up."
- I "left" Thrall.
- I lost my house.
- I had to do a property settlement in which I lost all access to the recording equipment and amps.
- I almost went mad from employment stress.
- I had a pregnancy that didn't work out.
- Tom went on our holiday to the USA when I was stuck in the hospital with my dying mother.

I will write something more in the coming weeks. I'm moving house this weekend. There's a long story to be told, and I think I want to tell it.